i'm unworthy, i can see you're above me

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my knees are fucked up, AGAIN. and this time it is baad. it feels like the last time i fell and almost broke my leg off, (not really but almost) but this time in both knees. it's always worse in the right knee but it's not a big difference now. I've been lying down and sitting down all day, it hurts to move my foot. FUCK! i hate my knees more than anything right now. this always fucking happens. i hate it i hate it! If it's not better by tomorrow the dad is going to take me to the hospital to get someone to look at it, hopefully it will be alright or something..

I'm nineteen years old and i feel like an old lady who can't do anything because of her bad hip. CAN SOMEONE GIVE ME A HIP REPLACEMENT PLEASE?!